hi!!! welcome to my blog! i write to you as i write to myself. some things are realities from lessons learned, some things i am speaking into existence, and some are written from the trenches themselves some days it feels like if i don’t get my thoughts out of my head and onto paper, my brain might explode i created heldbyavery, my instagram account, in early 2025 it marked the beginning of a huge transition. it was when i began to crawl out of the skin i was living in and s

i am in my new room that is making me feel all mushy gushy because i love it so much. its nowhere far. just two floors down from my last one its an october saturday morning as i write this there actually isn't much better. than a Saturday morning in October especially because it has reached the point of fall where the air is crisp. so crisp it feels like you can take a deeper breath. and like it actually hydrates and nourishes you when you do i went for a walk and when i walk

it never fails to amaze me how every song i know has the power to so aggressively bring me back to a specific memory, time of my life or person that it makes me physically nauseous sick with nostalgia naturally, when i find a new song that makes me feel some type of way i let it take me over for a few weeks i play it over and over and over and over suck all that i possibly can out of it and even that doesn't feel like enough i need everyone around me to love it too so i ca